happiness...yours or mine?

Being happy is a state of mind,most of us would say...It is an unexplainable and overwhelming feeling inside that makes us feel like we're on top of the world...It's the push behind us that makes us go the extra mile...and its the sense of assurance inside us that everything is possible!

Happiness is always being equaled to smile, laughter and good times...this is the kind of feeling that we never want to let go of since it puts us in a temporary state of delusion that for even a moment, we are "happy."  It may not last that long, but the memories are sure enough to last us a lifetime and will never fail to make our lips curve and smile.

This line might also be compared to a worn-out tire that has not been replaced yet, "do what makes you happy".  Well, it might sound easy but sometimes, happiness can be just too complex that it weaves us into a state of bewilderment and confuses us with  the feeling of being happy and the state of being altruistic.

Let's be honest, no one can make it into this world alone.  We always need somebody to rely on... Mr. Bean has his Teddy, Nim has her sea lion, Snow White has her seven dwarfs, even the ever scheming and ice queen Blair Waldorf has Serena van der Woodsen.  As you can see, no matter how weird, isolated, or mean you might be, you still want somebody to be by your side and cheer you up whenever you're in trouble.  And with their simple gestures you become "happy."

On the other hand, there are some situations where you need to compromise your own happiness in order to make other people happy.  It's not like you're being a hypocrite, a double-crosser or whatever, it's just that sometimes, its a way for you to take care of relations and maintain a civil situation with those people.  However, things can get out of hand sometimes, and though these people mean well, they tend to become too demanding without their knowing and can get really suffocating.  Although they think they are bringing you happiness and all that, but you can't help but feel happy no more and you tend to get stuck and have a hard time to find your way out.

Although seeking advice from others have only one major end result "get out of the situation, tell them directly how you feel." And the usual answer would be, "easier said than done".  It really is easier spoken than to be carried out. How can you easily tell someone off when they became an integral part of your life and welcomed you into their household, right?

But then again, I guess, God is always good and prevailing...He always finds a way and shows them just when we are on the verge of giving up.  We are born to experience Life at its finest, not to live on somebody else's shadow.

Now, I know better...

Being trapped in a situation of conscientiousness and happiness, choose what pleases you, not unless you want to be the clown that gets laughed at yet never the one who laughs.

luscious happiness!

Who doesn't like chocolates?

I'm sure everyone does...

What?! with its rich flavor of the finest cocoa and caramel and uber sweet chocolate filling...at times, engulfed with rich hazel nuts and vanilla coating.  One can never truly resist such a sweet temptation.

Chocolates are delectably irresistible and simply delicious.  Sure, they may come in different packages, variations, class and prizes but nevertheless they never fail to deliver what they're intended for...pure satisfaction!They are my instant mood lifters. Just a single bite from this creamy chocolatey goodness sends me to an instant Neverland where everything is is just how I dreamed it would be.. Perfect!

It's not really a puzzle why I crave for chocolates every so often...it's such a sweet and simple treat that would instantly brighten up my day and chase the dark clouds away...

in youth, i take delight!

my! my!How time really flies...

Seems only yesterday when I was off to my first day of school in kindergarten and my mom had to take pictures of me wearing my uniform, with the backpack and a lunchbox... How anxious was I to enter the enormous campus gates and duck at whatever strange and unidentified object that would be thrown at me.

I was young and naive, but there is this fire burning within me that makes me tough and brave to face my teacher, my classmates and be left alone inside the four cornered room filled with unfamiliar people.  A sigh of relief and glad to say 1st day of school was "no sweat!"..yey me!!!

I could imagine the ecstasy that I felt during those golden days where school was a huge theme park for us to meet and play with friends and conflicts were reduced to a minimal by a simple sorry and a kiss on the cheek.

However, life always has its irony...I remember being seven and running around the lush greeneries of the school campus without a care in the world...doesn't matter if my clothes are sweaty and wrinkly or my face looks dirty..i'm havin' fun and the world seemed so simple...and I was in a rush to grow up, become a "doctor" (stereotypically) and build my dream house...

Yet, now that I'm all grown up...Life was far from what I've envisioned back then...everything has been so complex and compounded...It's like the world took a total turn and played reverse just as I was about to aim the target and shoot for it.

"Take life one step at a time" they say...I heard about this expression much too often, but I wished I listened to it as well. There is but a fine line between hearing and listening..but if you put them into action, it makes a whole lot of difference.

Now, I can find myself saying... 

"how i wish i was seven again where wounds can be healed with just a simple 

adhesive bandage." 

Because now that I'm twenty three, things are becoming more complicated and pains need more than bandages to heal and recover.

illuminance...with a hint of pink...

When one looks good, then one feels good...or maybe when one feels good, then one looks good.

Either way, both still radiate a sense of euphoria that brings about a different glow to a person's over all bearing.

As a human being, to wake up in the morning and savor the dawn of a new day may be the most rewarding and gratifying moment one could have.  For it is during this time that one can pick up where he left off and continue to pursue towards his goal.  On the other hand, one can make a full on 360 degree turn and start anew.  

In my case, however, to arise at the break of dawn and feel the gentle wind kissing my cheeks and relish the sweet aroma that is, the morning, might just be the start of a wonderful day yet.

 

My first stop is the shower room, lather on some sweet scent of lavender and champagne makes me feel rejuvenated and energized for the day ahead. There is a certain sense of calmness yet comfort that lavender brings about which soothes the senses and clears the mind of the worries I might have had the day before.  The champagne, however, offers me the energy, strength and determination I need to become a go-getter and reach for my dreams.

And of course, after I've prepped myself up...we come to my most favorite part of the day...

Putting on my make up! :)

Applying these delicately constructed colorful palettes on my face is like an aerobic work out that makes me feel jazzed up for the day ahead.  It is also my most savored part of the day since it lets me focus on myself, and myself alone.  The lavish cream foundation feels like a thousand and one facial massages that makes the skin glow and revived.  The eyeshadows present a kaleidoscope of colors for the peepers that may scream sweet and innocent or whisper fierce and bitchy!  The pinch of blush on the cheeks illuminates the face and contours its shape.  While a simple wisp of lipstick exudes the femininity within us...And with a bit of gloss, the perfect weapon has been created. Sweet and Sensual...

These things provides me with a temporary dissociation from reality and lets me expand my skills on color, combination, structure and impact.  Aside from these intricate abilities, it allows me to experiment, have fun and just vogue like a party animal in front of the mirror!  Heck! that's a hell lot of benefits from just a simple make-up routine!

And after the finishing touch, here I am...happy and ready to face the world! :)

Young Hearts, Run Wild!

"What I would give to be young and in love?"

It might sound cliché, but have you ever caught yourself uttering this line too?

I do...much too often actually!

It's not even the fact that you are in love or that you are being loved...For what is love, seriously?

I know there are a dozen million or maybe billions of overused, predictable quotations running through your mind right now and it is with this notion of love that one might expect too much or expect too little or just become so expectant with the idea.  However, this should not be the case.  For love should be free and individualized, just as each of us is created unique and incomparable.

Maybe, if we set aside our ideals and principles about this little thing called LOVE, then we might be able to find happiness and contentment within...For love is love...plain black and white...it should be given wholly, no spare dimes, no reservations, pretensions, and unattainable expectations...

When you commit yourself to another person, then it's time for you to realize that it's not about you or about your other half, but its about the two of you, battling out against the odds, trying to fit in with the norms and sticking it out for each other.  That no matter how condemning the idea might be, you are willing to stand up for your loved one...simply because, you love him....no further explanations needed.

On the other hand, LOVE might not always be a dainty, sunny walk in the park...Oftentimes, one might feel that she is doing too much and the other is doing too little.  At this point, love becomes expectant, greedy and self-seeking.  Bear in mind, if we love the other person due to the fact that we share the same interests, hobbies and opinions, then we are in love with ourselves and not with the other person.  

Different is good, different is acceptance, different is selfless.

Let's try to renew our outlook in love...

When you love, be like a newborn child, who has no idea or knowledge about what it is, instead just loving selflessly and without expectations.  Let us not compare our better half with those whom we've loved before, for when we do, then we begin to see gaps, cracks and leaks that will disrupt our relationship with the other.  Then love becomes much more of a struggle to undermine what was before and overcome what is happening now. 

 Let us learn to accept the other as they come along, let us give them the chance to love us and for them to be loved, just like the first time.

I might as well say, I'm not really caught up with the idea of love, for I've been through different journeys already that I just had the notion all mixed up and caught in a woven wonderwall of thoughts and definitions.

Yes, it really makes a whole lot of difference when you can call someone in the middle of the night just to share your thoughts...Text someone early in the morning just to wake them up, knowing they like to sleep till noon, bother someone until they get so irritated, ask nonsense questions and let them think really hard about it, be silly, laugh for no reason, drink like there's no tomorrow and party like hell and still feel assured that, that someone is yours and yours alone.

I don't really know what you are thinking of about this at this moment, but yes, caring about each other matters...Not because I need someone to take care of me but because it feels good to be taken cared of and to care for that person in return.

and like i've said...to be young and in LOVE!

the thing i used to love...

I'm not gonna be a hypocrite and say that writing has changed me or better yet evolved me...but i could indeed say however that writing has healed me.

Whenever i feel down, lost, or confused I turn to writing in order to vent out my angst, woes and dilemmas.

This indeed has made me feel one less lonely and much more relieved.  A great sigh of relief and a feeling of rejuvenation consumes me and helps me to get back on track and redirect my focus.  For in writing, I found that you need not put on all the tension, drama, physical gestures and facial expressions.  you just need to write it down on plain paper and scribble all your worries away.  Or better yet, in this case however, type all your anxieties and frustrations until the monitor stings your eyes like hell.

However, writing has not only been there to console me during my dark and dreary times.  It has also become a way for me to share my smiles with the greater community as well.  I am convinced that we all have the capacity to make a difference in this world only if we believe we could do so.

At moments of ecstasy and delight, I tend to rediscover that life is indeed the most wonderful thing one can ever have.  Thus, by jotting it down and sharing my thoughts with other people, I know that I am able to awaken their senses and renew their perception about life and about living.

As you can see, writing is not just plain writing...It is an avenue for everyone to connect and renew people's lives.  It is a perfect express ride to take one on a wonderful inspirational journey that would lead them to self-renewal and rediscovery.  Through each letter that composes a single word and every statement made out of it, one can redefine their goals and focus in life.

We are, after all, a part of one big web..and who else to look out after us but each other, as well.

I'm thankful that I've found a motivation to write again..Without pressure, deadline or other motives...

Just to write and to inspire...