this is ME...so please...just let me BE!

We always hear those words "just be yourself" or maybe "live your life the way you want it to be." Try as we may, we can never do away with the fact that, though these lines are formulated to boost our self esteem, it is also one of those that could become our downfall. We all live mutually in this world, though we might not recognize this fact, but yes, we do give a damn about other people's business.  Sometimes, in an effort to reach out, we tend to become intrusive and down right nosy. Well, let's face it, one of the most fascinating scenarios in life is the truth which is, indeed, stranger than fiction.

More often than not, I've always been the subject of these intrigues and speculations wherever...so maybe I can revert and say "ït's not me, it's them!".  I don't see a problem with the way I deal with other people. I can even say with conviction that I don't mind other people's business, unless they interfere with mine.  I may be too overt, too outspoken or too straight forward at times, but in my defense, "a good friend would stab you straight front and not behind your back." I may not mingle well with everybody in a group, but it's because I don't open up instantly with new acquaintances.  It takes time for me to be at ease conversing with new faces, but once I get comfortable, I never put any walls or barriers between us.  They also tell me that I'm a snob, truth is, I'm not.  I'm just not good in remembering people's faces, especially if I've only seen them once or twice.  I can even say that, I've often mistaken one person for another and end up getting embarrassed and maybe because of those unfortunate mishaps,I got traumatized.  Another comment I hear quite a lot is that, considering I'm an only child, I'm spoiled and such a brat.  big NO! I am not. Definitely! I may have those nice little things and maybe a little extra cash, but at a fair limit...I don't overspend or buy things that aren't of use at all.

In relation to first impressions, they tend to say, I'm suplada, intimidating and the like...what the eff??? Clearly, I'm just standing there, what gave you the idea that I am that kind of person?  and yes, how I love to prove them wrong.  I may have days when I'm feeling a bit off but, forgive me, I'm a girl...hormonal imbalances can really get the best of me...which girl doesn't? Some are even worse.  Trust me, I know!  But mostly, I'm just a happy go lucky, carefree, worry free gal....well, I can be a bitch, when necessary, and please let's remove that BITCH stigma, 21st century definition of bitch is an empowered, confident and successful woman, although this may not apply to the general public. If you know what I mean.

I may also be hooked on partying, drinking and smoking, but I don't do drugs..haha!Just felt like I needed to point that out...and no, I won't say that sex is better than drugs.For those who have tried both, just leave a comment.  On this note again, I'd like to stress out that even though I party, I finished college, passed the licensure exam, passed the IELTS exam, currently finishing my Master's degree and I have a job waiting for me a month from now. So excuse me if I drink and smoke a lot, it's just a temporary dissociation from reality which allows me to just let go and release those stressful vibes.

I do hope you think that it is fair enough.  Coz when the lights go down and the curtains fall, I could really say that "my day was good, let night fall."